It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself

For quite some time now I've been fascinated by career changes, mid-life crises and how people free themselves of their photocopied days. This urgent need to fill your time with something thats nothing short of spectacular! All of this while doing your job, living everyday. Maybe I am just too busy with nothing to do. On some occasions a movie comes to the rescue, on others a long drive or music or writing. On the outside I'm supposed to be living this exciting and successful life but . . . Yet if am not feeling there's something wrong then there's something wrong. You wake up, brush your teeth, preen yourself, put on your favourite suit, polish your car such that you can see yourself smile on the windscreen. For what? Why would you do all of this? Why would you care? Its not your life anyway. You are only doing stuff you are supposed to do rather than what you want to.


Lester Burnham has been long dead. This is what he had to say:

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself. Makes you wonder what else you can do"

and this too

"I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday."

-------AMERICAN BEAUTY


P.S: In case you feel this is the rambling of a child prodigy in mid-life crises then ignore it. I've been having bouts of insomnia lately. And I promise future posts will be more bubbly